Forgive me for the delay in writing.
I started these letters in an attempt to remember these years of our lives, knowing that time will pass quickly and the details of these crazy days will fade. Unfortunately, I let my insecurities stop me from returning to the electronic page- afraid of judgement over parenting choices or that my writing skills would be critiqued, fearful that my perspective and voice would have no place among the other reading material that exists and people would say "who cares" when my link appears in their newsfeed....
...and now I've lost so much time that cannot be retrieved.
But the good news is that I remembered that you are my audience and these words and memories are beyond criticism because they are uniquely ours. Thank goodness I realized this in time.
Because I want to remember these days.
I want to remember how you love to show off your new rhyming skills by playing the rhyming game in the car.....which apparently means I say a word and you change the beginning sound to "sl"
M:"Car"
O:"Slar"
M:"Sky"
O:"Sly"
M:"Putt"
O:"Slut"
M:"Ok, new game!"
I want to remember how at five years old you still want to be held in the morning, prefer company in the bathroom, and love the Kidz Bop station.
And how this morning you posed so confidently for a picture of your last day of preschool at Ms. Jennifer's. How you told me that you are proud of me for getting my new job, that you are going to eat junk food at Grana's tonight, and when you looked in the mirror you smiled and said "I'm beautiful."
Totally agree.
Daddy and I are so excited to spend this summer with you. This is our one and only summer with a five year old and I intend to remember it.
Love,
Mommy
